Screaming heart

Once again, here I stand alone. Heartbroken, lost, never to be found.
I knew this day would come and I dreaded it all along.
All I want to do right now is scream loud at the top of my lungs.
Can you hear me? Do you hear my heart beat?
As your love fades from my heart, it feels like a thousand knives
cutting deeper and deeper inside.
They twist and they turn until I am left with no soul.
I wouldn't mind because then I won't be able to feel, to cry, to love
so hard that it burns and tears me apart and if I can't feel your love, 
then I don't want to love, there would be no use in trying because it
would never be honest, real, crazy, passionate and true like it was with
you...

Forget Me Not

So many questions, the answers are hidden somewhere in the depths of my soul.
Your spirit, your heart is so close but yet, you are so far.
When will we get it right? When will the stars be aligned?
My heart will die if I won't feel your love again. Right now, I feel it's already dead.
Magic only happened when you put your hand on it and it started to beat.
Only you can revive me.

Will we ever be one? Will our time ever come? Or will we wait forever for each other?
I know I will...but God has the final say and I am in no position to question God's will.
If not now, maybe we will be together in another life unbelievably in love.
I can't say goodbye because that would hurt too much. Instead I'll say: see you later my
love. Forget me not! You will always be in my heart!

Journey to paradise..

I have to start my life over..but how?
I was never good at letting go. 
Just the thought of not seeing you, feeling you again breaks my spirit.
Sometimes I feel like life is playing tricks on me with the amount of
pain and loss I have to deal with.
 I just want to be free...

The only place I feel at peace is in nature. I just sit on a rock all day, watch the waves fold into each other, the tree is like a tent around me, the sun glistens through and the colors are so beautiful. 
I feel at ease, my problems don't exist, I become one with nature for that moment.
There is no one around me, no distraction, all I can hear are the waves. This is my perfect paradise. No pain, no tears just pure beauty and silence. The loud sound of the real world is at great distance and I feel content with just being alone. I breathe and then release everything and all that's left is forgiveness. That's what I call perfection.

I would want to teach you so bad, what life really is about. Take you on a journey. Just you and me...

Time..

Time...how I hate it. With the passing of it you become even further from me.
I wish I could go back and re-write our story, every episode, then stop the clock
and make the beautiful moments last forever..

Just a woman hopelessly in love...

If only I could show you, if only I could tell you how you make me feel inside.
The truth is: maybe I don't have to because you know. You know everything. A smile, a gesture is enough, that look in my eyes tells it all. It's so clear, even the blind would be able to see how much you mean to me and that I am so into you, so unbelievably in love with you, so head over heals that I never know where I am. All I know is where I would always want to be, where I feel peace, where my body and soul is at ease: in your arms.
My heart skips a beat, my knees go weak every time and all you did was look deep into my eyes.
Feeling your embrace, kissing your soft lips, making love to you feels like heaven. I feel so close to you, so vulnerable. Every moment with you is beautiful. Then why? Oh, Lord why? Why aren't we each other's? Why aren't you with me? Why aren't we one? Why won't you stay forever?
I guess I will never understand and will never know the answer.....

Never loved anyone(the way that I Iove you)

I don't think that I've ever been this close to you.
I never thought we'd do all of the things we do.
And I have to pinch myself each time you kiss me.
And I have to knock on wood each time you're with me.

This is a miracle, I've waited so long.
I know this is meant to be, 'cos when you're with me, 
we can't go wrong.

So just stay with me, hold me close.
What you give to me, is all I need to feel.
Take me in your arms and don't let me go.
I want you to know that I've never loved anyone
the way that I love you.

I don't think that we've ever touched each other like this.
When I look into your eyes, it tells me everything.
When we make love, I feel your heart beating next to mine.
The way you kiss me, slows down time.

This is a miracle, I've waited so long.
I know this is meant to be, 'cos when you're with me, 
we can't go wrong.

So just stay with me, hold me close.
What you give to me, is all I need to feel.
Take me in your arms and don't let me go.
I want you to know that I've never loved anyone
the way that I love you.

Lost love...

I woke from the darkness and you weren't there. I wonder: will I hear your voice again? My heart is scared and lonely because it misses the piece that only you have. It beats slower every day since you left. I wish I could show you the depths of my soul but now that you're gone, my secrets will be buried and those you will never know. It's not fair! Now I bare the weight of every unspoken word, kisses left unkissed, love that was never made, promises that were never kept and feelings that were never felt..