Wish You Knew

I woke to the sound of rain pouring.
It was so dark I could barely see a thing.
I stand alone. Count the raindrops that hit my face.
They replace the tears I am unable to cry.
Feeling empty, spirit lost, my body's firm as a rock.
Deafening silence surrounds me, still I hear you whisper my name softly.

Wish you knew...

My God I wish you knew how much I miss you, how I long to kiss you.
I need you to tell me you love me. I need to feel it. Let's turn back time. We've
always done the impossible. We've come so far, but I feel you're giving up.
You say it's my fault, that I'm to blame, but you're the one playing a dangerous game.

All I've ever done is love you. I dried your tears, you made me fight my fears.
We used to be a team. There was no you and me.
There was us.
Wish you knew how much I miss us.
The little things you used to do to make me smile, the promises you made sure were kept.
Where are you my love? I can't see you, I want to feel you.
Can we make it through? Are you willing to fight for me and you?

I am wounded, I am open, I am hurt, I am broken, still have hope. I am yours.
My aching heart longs for you, I wish you knew....

Addicted (I Can Feel You)

I can feel you, feel you everywhere.
Even when you're miles away, your energy still lingers here.
I close my eyes, I feel a sudden rush as your hands gently caress my body
and as your soft lips press against mine.
Addicted to how it feels, how you're able to undress me with those eyes that glisten
in the dark and gaze into mine while we make love.

I can feel you, feel you inside me, you're not even here, but I feel you everywhere.
In the air, on this bed, on the chair, between my legs. 
I crave every part of you.
"Greedy" that's what you'd call me.
That I am, I want you to myself.
I yearn for every drop of you're love, every piece of your heart.
Give it to me, I need it now. Don't stop!
As long as you're inside me, you're mine, I'm yours, we're connected, lost in each other,
we're one.

Place your head on my chest.
Every beat you hear is for you.
Addicted to the thought of how it would feel every day
to fall asleep in your arms and wake up next to you..

C.H.G (18) - A sister's love -

...And I still miss you every day, every hour, every second.
A part of me died when you were ripped from my hands.
I may have changed a little, you may have grown up too fast, but my 
love for you is eternal, true. NEVER question it's deepness, it's existence.

There are so many forms of love. Mine is the kind that is patient, doesn't ask 
for anything in return, it's honest, loyal, it doesn't judge.
I am not going to lie..it's been so hard.
Without you this house has been empty and cold. If walls could talk, they'd
tell you so many stories. How I cried myself to sleep, praying that you were safe
and sound, how I wished that one day you'd find your way home. 
I haven't let go of that thought, I haven't given up.
The law may not be on my side, but God is my witness. He sees what's wrong 
and right. 

Don't you worry my sunshine, there will come a day, there will come a time when 
we will leave all this mess behind. Just remember that you are powerful, beautiful,
irreplaceable. Hold your head high to the sky and pray. If you fail, try again and again
and again. I hold you close to my heart until we meet again.

I wish you a very Happy Birthday!

I love you dearly C.H.G